ya so thats pretty much waht im doing

my mom died on Sunday and im in the process of getting funeral arrangements together because im one of only 2 next of kin so its falling on her father and me to get everything ready ill be leaving for Maine on Tuesday.
while cant say i never loved my mother i did not really acknowledge her much because she realy wasn't there much for me it was always my father doing things for me. i hadnt spoken to my mother since my graduation so i kinda feel bad about not talking to her before she went.. but im sure most people are like that. if you knew someone important to you was going to die the next day you would want to say your words to them its the way these things work life is a never expecting experience where you have to take it a day at a time while hoping that this next turn you take wont be your last for some i say again unexpected reason.
while i don't have many fond memorys of my mother and most arnt happy at pest there are those time like always that i can recall having fun. i sapose its times like these that do that to you.

i may end up using this as part of my speech on Wednesday for the funeral

on some happyer notes i got my tablet today so i will be experimenting with that as time gose by

i went to a concert yesterday AFI and god damn that was awesome best show ive been to didn't help that there one of my favorite bands and finally getting to see them up close <like the first 3 rows> was fucking awesome i only wish i had had a better camera